Well, it's been a month since the last post, and i seem to be neglecting my duties. Unfortunately, not a lot has been going on.

Today, i've decided to talk about following orders (if you hadn't guessed that from the title, well, then you've kind of made me sad). Anyway. I'm not talking about following orders blindly, and trusting your dom to do the right thing and not lead you astray.

I'm talking about being asked to do something you are ethically uncertain about, and still doing it because He said so. There is something wrong with that.

I don't think a Dom/Master should ask you to do something he knows you think is morally wrong. That just isn't right.

But, from my point of view, being a slave and all, i would probably do it, just to please him. And that is incredibly terrifying.

I'm saying i would do anything to please Master, and that includes things i don't enjoy doing. Mind you, He has never asked me to do something i don't enjoy, but it's entirely likely.

My thinking is this: He should never ask me to do something i don't enjoy, just to test me, especially to test me. Just to see how far i'd go.

There are those out there that would do that. Just to see how devoted you are to them, and that is complete crap. That is game playing, and no one should have to do that.

So, as a slave, do i have the right to deny Him my service? Of course. I may be a slave, but i'm also a person. I have the right to refuse to do something that might put me in harms way. I'm not saying he would put me in harms way like that.

I'm saying, i have the RIGHT to say no. Mind you, i'd probably be questioned, and we'd discuss it, but i can still say no.

My problem is this: there are some who like to think slaves have no choices, and must do ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING their 'master' tells them to do. And that includes potentially harmful things. But there are also women out there that like that.

I have no idea what i'm saying. I think i'm trying to say that just because i'm a slave, doesn't mean i'm not human, and want to look out for myself.

It's been two weeks since Master and i have played. I got a couple new toys: a flogger and a cupping system. They both leave nice marks, which i love, of course.

Tomorrow is my birthday, and Master says he has some special stuff for me. I can't wait.

Hope you're all having a wonderful Monday!