Ok, so I've been a little lax on my messages. Some vanilla news first: my computer crashed a couple months ago, then it took even longer to fix it, then even longer to get the internet back. It was a hassle and a half to say the least.

Anyway, to the rant. Well, not rant, but 'good stuff', I guess.

Vanilla people think 'lifestylers' are weird. Do we think they're weird? I think it's along the lines of me, being a female slave, thinking male sub-types are weird.

I couldn't imagine topping a man. For the simple reason because I wouldn't get any sort of pleasure/satisfaction from it. Even if Master asked me to (which he wouldn't) I'd have to question it. That's why I could never be with a switch.

For one, a switch wouldn't be happy with just me. He/she would have to find a different person to top them. It goes against ever fiber of my being to top another person.

Do I think male bottom-types are weird? I think it's not so simple. I think it has to do with fear of the unknown. I know why I'm a slave (well, kind of), and why i submit. Do male submissives/slaves have the same need to serve/submit that I do? They kind of have to have the same sort of feeling, otherwise they wouldn't be submissive. Right?

As usual, I'm making things more complicated. The question is this: Are male submissives driven by the same emotion/feelings as female slaves? I can't imagine why they wouldn't be. To take the question a little further, are dominant women driven by the same feelings/emotions/needs/desires as dominant men?

I mean, I wouldn't want to think I'm so special that I have different reasons for submitting than male slaves; because I know that isn't true. But that doesn't make me any less curious.

Back to the original question: are vanilla people weird? Probably. But not because they're not lifestylers. People are weird despite their sexual orientation. Being something I'm not (vanilla) doesn't make them any more weird than anyone in the lifestyle. To think that is close-minded, and I prefer to think that I'm rather open-minded.

But am I less of a slave because I enjoy vanilla sex on occasion? Is is so wrong for me to want sex without the rope/blindfold/scening? Sometimes I don't want the belt or a spanking, or the cane. Sometimes I want to be touched gently without all the pain. Does that make me less of a masochist, or a slave?

I really hope not, because if it does, then, well I'm less of a slave. If Master wants vanilla sex, that's what I'm going to give him. Just as simple as that. And yes, I have occasionally been guilty of requesting regular sex. Master doesn't mind. He usually just makes up for it in other ways.

But I am a woman first, then a slave. And sometimes, the woman in me wants something different. To me, vanilla sex is different. In any relationship, sometimes the sex gets a little old and boring; the same old, same old, type of thing. So to 'mix it up' we have vanilla sex. Nothing wrong with that, in my book.

I finally got my nipple pierced recently. After a few months of debating it. Master was very pleased. We had talked about it earlier this year, and I told him I hadn't wanted to get it done. Finally, last week, I took the plunge. Sometime in the fall, I plan on getting the other one done.

I think that's it for now. Not a lot going on.

Hope you're all having a wonderful weekend!